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Post by Annie on Aug 2, 2004 10:30:31 GMT -5
My Rano had a strange reaction to my death. At first he made a strange noise and went rigid. He got angry at the whole when-I-die-he-will-be-my-loving-companion thing. He gave my death a funny look then layed down and sortof dosed in a chair as I talked. Later I asked him what that was all about and he said that he knew that him being angry at my death would upset me, so he made himself quit being mad. He said he wanted to be able to accept my death and possibly even have a friendship. I had figured Rano would be angry and nervous around him every time he showed himself. This is definately going to be a strange relationship.
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Post by maia on Aug 3, 2004 14:44:31 GMT -5
I still haven't made a concious effort to meet my Death and Mox is still not entirely happy about the idea. I've been more aware recently though of a figure nearby, ducking out of view when I look. One evening I will try to start a conversation with him...
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Post by Ra on Aug 9, 2004 22:34:38 GMT -5
I don't really want to know my Death. I feel lots more confortable with my dæmon. He doesn't get angry when I bring up the subject, but he gives me a firm growl and tells me to stop thinking about death. And then, it makes me sad, because I don't want to leave my dæmon. I haven't known him too long, but I love him already, and it's a bit hard to imagine life without him beside me.
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Post by maia on Aug 30, 2004 11:13:10 GMT -5
I actually met my death for the first time last night without meaning to. I won't write a description now as Ive already done that in my Live Journal, so I'll just copy and paste what I wrote there below : Monday, August 30th, 2004 4:28 pm Hmmm...I finally met and spoke to my "Death" last night after wanting to for ages, and......shes female, which really surprised me as they are usually male. I was also surprised when she told me her name : Maki. What is it with me and names beginning with "Ma"? Maia, Maddox and Maki. Maia was given to me as a name, and both Maki and Maddox picked their own names without much imput from me.I was just sitting there thinking about finally meeting "him", and I looked up and she was sitting against my door smiling in a gentle amused way. Immediately Mox became agitated, and I swear that the colour of his fur increased and became a REALLY vivid red-brown, so vivid that everything else eemed to become almost slightly black and white, if that makes sense... Hei's also usually quite laid back, but when Maki appeared hei began fidgeting and constantly moving. I think both things were to affirm himself, that hei was there, to make him more real, to prove that wei're both alive, I guess, and that hei didn't want Maki there. Maki looked quite hurt by it, and a bit sad. I felt bad for her, and intrigued to get to know her, but as I have known Mox for so much longer I just held him close and tried to calm him down. Wei've spoken a lot about meeting my Death, and hei has grudgingly given me his permission to do so, but I think it was still a shock. As to what Maki looks like. Surprisingly she looked similar to the character "Snapdragon" from Kabuki. Surprising because shes always been a background character who I haven't thought about much. An odd coincidence is that 2 days ago I changed my desktop wallpaper to a picture of SnapDragon without really knowing why. Maki has Snapdragons long black hair and pale skin. She also had the stipe of dark make up across her eyes but only had dark lips rather than the stripe of makeup across the lips that Snapdragon has. Her hair was messily piled up on her head rather than down. Instead of Snapdragons (very) skimpy outfit, she was wearing a pair of dark grey/black combat trousers and a cropped t-shirt which was white. She had bare feet and her nails (toe and finger) were painted red. Weird little detail I know, but I noticed it. Its strange that, reading that description of her makes her sound quite scary, but I didn't find her frightning. Sure, for a second after seeing her and thinking "Jeez, this is my death!" I felt slightly alarmed, but she looked so kind, despite her slightly scary exterior that I felt somewhat comforted. I asked her if she was my Death and she said she was, and then I asked her what her name was, and she replied Maki. I told her that that was weird 'cause of the letters it started with, and she just laughed and did a kind of shrug and said "I guess.." It was interesting meeting her, even though it was a very short meeting. I hope to talk to her again, but I can't imagine her ever replacing Mox, and it would be too....uncomftable to have a strong relationship with both of them *gives Mox a big hug* In case you don't know what Snapdragon looks like, heres the only photo I could find where she doesn't look completely psychotic : starxade.com/Kabuki/tigerlily.gif[/img]As I said, Maki looks similar but has some differences, and of course, she wasn't carrying a big knife. ![;)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/wink.png)
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Post by ice on Aug 30, 2004 11:30:46 GMT -5
Hey guys. I was reading this post and felt that I was kinda depriving my death of attention. Much to Lass's horror I decided to see him. As of yet he doesn't have a name, but here's a picture: ![](http://x.elixant.com/portfolio/reaper2.jpg)
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Post by ice on Aug 30, 2004 11:32:58 GMT -5
He's a sarcastic little hovering skeleton. ![:P](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/tongue.png)
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Post by Key & Nax on Aug 30, 2004 14:47:21 GMT -5
Decided I'd update seeing as this thread is still running.
A couple of weeks ago, I had a weird dream. I was wandering in this dull, colour-less sort of place. It was confusing and strange, and there were a lot of people there - they looked human, but they were all very pale-skinned, dark-haired, tall and thin. I was creeped out by them, and to be honest they looked quite hostile towards me, in a silent, unnerving way. I knew I was lost by then, and I was getting more scared by the second. Suddenly someone gripped my arm, and I turned around to see Lethe beside me. He put another hand on my shoulder and said firmly, "Come with me." I can remember feeling safe, then. I trusted him. He led me away from that place, and then I woke up. I can't help but shudder at the thought of what might have happened if Lethe hadn't found me there - I know that sounds silly as it was just a dream...
I hadn't talked to him for months, but it does seem fitting that Lethe was guiding me, as I know Panaka would have been as lost as me, and the feel of that place was strikingly similar to how the world of the Dead is described in HDM...
Strange, huh?
Edit: Maia, that's an interesting piece of news... when I first met my death he was sitting outside on the windowsill at school, and I just started talking to him, a little self-conciously and awkwardly. He was equally reserved, but there was a connection. I had no idea he was my death then, I didn't even know my dæmon. Lethe just nodded shyly and sort of... faded away after the conversation, and I didn't see him again until weeks after I found Okibi's site and discovered Panaka.
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Post by SNL_Ali on Aug 30, 2004 15:07:10 GMT -5
*shiver shiver*
I haven't really had any intention to get to know my death (sorry death....). I don't know.........I may be a little weird, but just the idea of a Death freaks me out, however Tyb is kinda intrigued by it. I don't know, maybe he'll just show up sometime when I don't expect it. But Zed, that sounds like a really scary experience, remember it. It may be important to remember what happened.
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Post by maia on Aug 30, 2004 15:23:17 GMT -5
I've just finished a picture of Maki. I'll try and post it soon. And don't feel worried about meeting your death. If you're not comftable, then don't do it. I can't imagine that I'll talk to Maki much, I think it would make Mox too uncomftable, but its......comforting (weird I know) to know that she is there.
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Post by Key & Nax on Aug 30, 2004 16:24:24 GMT -5
*nods in agreement with maia*
Yes... it is strangely comforting. Sometimes, when I think about death, I'll get worried and Panaka will become edgy and just say, "Forget it, Zed, OK?" But at other times, I look over and get a glimpse of dark hair and a shy smile, and it makes me feel reassured to know that he's there watching over me. I have to stress the 'other times', because I know that it's uncomfortable to think about... Thanks for the advice - I hadn't previously thought of doing this, but I'll put it down in my journal. Yes, I was frightened - but in a way that was almost numb and spaced out, which, now I think about it, freaks me out even more in retrospect...
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Post by Annie on Aug 30, 2004 18:02:03 GMT -5
I posted earlier about Rano having a non-hostile reaction to my death. He wasn't really aggitated after a few minutes. I think I've figured out why. This might get long...
When I was 4 years old I had open heart surgery. They stopped my heart and breathing. I was techincally dead. The only way I was kept alive, was by a machine pumping my blood for me. I remember right before I went under the anesthisia, I saw a figure in the corner of the room. Now that I think back to the details, it was my death. If I had known my death then, I would have been scared silly. I think it just shows how close to death I really was. I think in the while I was unconsious, my daemon, and my death talked. They got to know each other just a little. I think my death told Rano that he needed to be in my life. I needed my daemon, because of the effects that this would cause. If I lived that is. I know now why it was then that he started showing up more and more. Before it was only when my mom and my dad were fighting. They got divorced when I was 3... I always have remembered a big wolf at my side during those times. When he started showing up more and more, I felt better. It was then that I really started having i/fs. I think Rano knew that I wouldn't really understand him untill I was older. It took me till now to realize that he's been that presence I've felt all my life... That guardian that has watched over me... I believe I saw an angel then too, she was pretty... But that really isn't the point. (Though Rano insists that my great grandfather's spirit is my guardian angel...)
Now I can't even remember what my point was... Well, maybe you all will find it interesing anyway...
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Post by maia on Aug 31, 2004 11:51:17 GMT -5
Aww....(hugs Hannah for 2 reasons. 1, that shes an amazing survivor and wei're glad that she and Rano are with us today. And 2, that shes become a senior member!!)
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Post by Annie on Aug 31, 2004 20:40:14 GMT -5
Oh *blinks* Thanks. ![:)](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/smiley.png) I don't really think of myself as an 'amazing survivor' but you can if you want. ;D Rano says I'm being to wierd about it. Sometimes I think of how amazingly I didn't have to get a pacemaker, but that is a different thing all together. (Not really, but I don't want to bore anyone with the percentages...) Yay! Senior member! I'm old too!
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Post by rave & phair on Sept 1, 2004 6:36:00 GMT -5
I'd tried to see my death before, but I never actually got a clear picture of him until this thread came up. Thank you once again, thread-creators, for booting me out of my ignorance.
He started out at the far end on the room, then slowly walked toward me until he was standing over me. Then me sat down on the filing cabinet, crossed his ankles, and watched me. Darkett was huddling next to me, making very uncharacteristic whimpering noises. After my death sat down, hei calmed down again. I typed out some split second notes after seeing him: "He's about the same height as me; skinny; with eyeliner; he has straight black hair that frames his face in a heart-shape; eyebrow pierced; wearing baggy black shirt with illegible white writing; baggy black cargo pants with various chains; combat boots." What thinketh thou of that?
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Post by maia on Sept 1, 2004 11:20:17 GMT -5
Me thinketh that is cool! Do you think you continue trying to talk to him?
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